Simmer

You know its bad when you almost start crying at work because you miss your old boss...

What an emotional week it's been (since last Thursday), with job stuff and friend stuff (I know its vague but I can't just go putting my whole self out there on the web). Let me just say that finding a job that really suits you with people that you like who challenge you and look out for you is incredibly hard to find. I miss my old boss because he knew what I was trying to get out of my job and threw me into the projects that would get me there. Now, at times I think I'm not being aggressive enough about seeking out opportunities to excel, but at other times I think I've put myself out there and am constantly asking how I can help, but no one cares. I'm not being challenged intellectually, and if I left this job today I wouldn't have ANY new skills under my belt (which is somewhat sad considering I've worked here for nearly 6 months). I need more, I need intellectual stimulation.

And on the friend front, its just been exhausting. I love love love hanging out with my friends, and miss those that aren't near, but sometimes I put pressure on myself to hang out everyday, and that gets tiring. I forget that I need Lysandra time or Lysandra might just poop out on me. I know its bad when at the end of the day I have a killer headache and I wake up with a sore back...that's stress and worry right there.

Anyway, my heart, mind and body have had a workout these past few days, so I just need some down time to simmer.