Temporary Blindness

Have you ever had one of those moments when you temporarily lose sight of who you were once trying to become, even if only for a minute??

That happened to me recently, but luckily that moment was also accompanied by an epiphany! I realized that I get so caught up in what's going on around me and the inconsiderate and oftentimes ignorant things that people are doing (that seem to abound in NYC), that I forget about me. About who I am striving to become as a human being. The ultimate goals that I want to achieve in terms of my personal impact on society and simply becoming a better me. That's a shame isn't it?

But alas, we all get caught up sometimes. I just got caught up for a little too long, but I'm working on it. I remembered a quote this morning right as I woke up that shook me and awakened me back to what I was once trying to be: "...be completely humble and gentle. Be patient bearing with one another in love." I had forgotten! Perhaps because I am rebelling against an institution that once consumed me. That made me think that who I was wasn't enough, so I denied that person, and locked her deep in the recesses of me. And now am afraid to return to anything associated with that time for fear that I will end up denying me true self (the good, the bad, and the ugly) once again. But now I remember that quote that was once my mantra and helped me to become the person that I wanted to be and will once again try harder.