Blech...

So the verdict is in...just friends. And I'll be honest, I'm sad about that because we get along so well. The flip side of that is we get along so well, I'm happy that we can be friends still.

Why does it feel like I have this unbelievable knack for picking guys who are unavailable to me? Either they have girlfriends, they just want to be friends, or they'd rather hang with their male friends. What's up with that? It sucks, but alas, I'd rather date a guy who's actually into me, than waiting for him to break up with his girlfriend, convincing him we could be more than friends, or getting him to hang out with me instead of his boyz.

But again honesty prevails...as I write all this trying to convince myself that I'm cool with it, I'm still so torn up inside. You put yourself out there to have something held against you that you have no control over. Perhaps if my parents got married and birthed all of their children five years earlier I would have a chance, but there's no going back in time, and I'm sure its for the fucking best. It just doesn't feel like it right now :-( I'll get over it though, I always do and then think that perhaps it wouldn't be so bad to be single forever...