Envision

Have you ever felt like you've finally found yourself in this place that you'd envisioned for so long??

That's happened to me a couple of times. Once on my first New Year's Eve in NYC. I was working with NYC2012 and we were coordinating this whole big Olympian thing at the 9 o'clock hour with 12 Olympians presenting awards to 12 young athletes. And we got VIP passes so we could move around in Times Square without issue. So as midnight approached, we all gathered outside in the center of Times Square to watch the ball drop and as it did confetti showered down like snow from ALL the surrounding buildings. It was soo amazing and surreal. At that moment I knew that things were just as they should be in my life. I was finally in the right city doing the right work to advance in my career and hanging out with really fun amazing new friends.

I had that feeling again this morning as I was doing my hair thinking about Adam. I feel like I've envisioned myself in a place spending time with a quality person/significant other that was just so comfortable and easy, and I have that now. And its weird because I have always seen couples around me and thought, "that's not really how I want to be with my boyfriend," or ,"that seems a little weird and forced." (Don't get me wrong, I have also been witness to relationships that were comfortable and relaxed where you could tell the two people loved each othr very deeply). And now that I'm in a relationship I realize that it is exactly what you make it to be, especially if you are real. With Adam, I feel like I can be myself, say what I truly feel, and be who I really am, more than with anyone (perhaps with the exception of my mom, sis, and bro). He makes me smile and laugh and think and want to make the world a better place as corny as that is. And he puts me at ease. Its all the things I imagined that a relationship should be, but thought I was being to idealistic to have because of what I saw and heard in other relationships. I'm happy to be where I am right now...very content. There are even small glimpses of the future...