Being in a relationship ain't easy! Not that I thought it would be, but I guess I never realized how much my worrying nature would effect me and my outlook on various situations. I feel like a nutcase sometimes! Why can't it just be soo easy, and why can't I be less emotional?!?!?! Damn estrogen!
Something else besides my worrying nature that I noticed is that recently I've been intimidated by confronting situations that bother me. Even with a friend of mine who was being completely obnoxious (but didn't realize it)...I wanted to say something to her, but I couldn't bring myself to. I would think about it, and want to do it every time I saw her, but I couldn't. And now the same goes with the beau. Sometimes I want to ask him questions but I'm afraid that he'll freak out and think that I'm inferring that I want something or other (which if you know me, I'm not...and if you know my questions, you could see why he might think this). I am pretty straight forward, so start to stumble over my words when trying to explain something in a way so as not to offend, freak out, or side-track someone. It's silly, I know, but reality.
I guess I just gotta be out with it (no matter the order of the words) because what is a relationship if you can't truly say what's on your mind?
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