I can do better

I dislike this more and more each day. People who talk to me like a moron. People who insinuate that I'm dumb because I don't agree with their very simple way of thinking or acting. People who get mad at me and give me the silent treatment (are we not adults here). People who just plain make me a worse person. Ok, well that may not be entirely true. People cannot make you into anything but they can influence you, and I think I have been influenced negatively and in a detrimental way. I am getting out. It will take a little time to work out the details, but the wheels are in motion and I am getting out. It raises my blood pressure and increases my anxiety to be in a place like this, and I cannot have that. I need my blood pressure to go up because I am soo excited and passionate about what I am doing...not because I am frustrated with the lack of deeper thought and control of language all around me. I can do better than this for myself. I know I can...and I will.

Travel, travel, rest, travel some more

I'm having a hard time here. I want to go all these places to visit, but I'm running out of vacation days. I'm trying to sneak in trips on weekends, but it is getting exhausting. I need to figure out where I want to be, but I feel like I need to see these places first.

Sorry if this all sounds vague. In a few months I'll hopefully be able to be more clear on this topic, but for now this is what I can offer. Can I buy vacation days from someone? I guess I could buy them from myself and not get paid, right...that's basically the same thing. I wonder if that will work.

Anyway, I'll let you know where my next adventure takes me.

Random Thoughts and Gym Time

Hey buttercups! It's been a while since I wrote, and I don't know what to tell ya. Life has been all-consuming these last few months and I have hardly had time to breathe. I did though, or else I wouldn't still be here of course! But things are going pretty well. I've been thinking a lot about the future and where I am headed next. That keeps me up at night to say the least, but at least I am taking steps towards making a positive change in my life so I can come home from work happy and content that the work I'm doing is not only benefiting the company but changing the world (if only even in the slightest way). I look forward to telling you all about the results of those adventures, but it will have to remain a secret for now.

In other news...I'm getting fat (according to BMI I am obese, but lets be honest, I am pretty strong and muscular to begin with, but I definitely weigh more than I should). For whatever reason I can't seem to fit gym time into my schedule anymore. I used to be really diligent about gymmin' it, or at least running, but now by the time I get home (6:20pm when leaving work at 5pm) I barely have the desire or energy to do anything but study or watch TV. I would love to be one of those people who thoroughly enjoys running and gets out there every day knowing it will make them feel good...but alas, this is not me. I am one of those people who exercises because intellectually I know its good for my heart muscle and keeps me from gaining weight from all the ice cream I love so dearly. But alas, the ice cream is winning these days...I've even cut back (say WHAT?!!) because I know I don't exercise as much as I should. Anywho...if you know any ideas for helping me fit exercise back in my life or motivating me in some way I would LOVE to hear from you...even if you want to be my gym buddy...even if you live across the country and want to be my long distance gym buddy...let me know.