Seeing yourself

It's funny...the things we get upset about in other people are the usually the things we don't like about ourselves. I hate it when people belittle me or others, but sometimes I find myself doing the same thing, and lament the words once they exit my mouth.

Its tough, but I think seeing the things we dislike about other people can help us better ourselves little by little.

I don't like mean me.

It hurts me to have to be so frank (what I sometimes think is rude) to people who are soliciting my business. I hate being rude, but sometimes people don't respond to anything different. It makes me feel bad inside to have to speak to people that way, and when I hang up the phone I feel like a bad person. I don't like that. I don't like being that kind of person. I just want to work somewhere where I can feel good about majority of my interactions and know that it is going to be a place that makes me a better person, not tears me down. Is that too much to ask? It just might be huh?

Well, I can tell this is the beginning of a mood :-( Poop on hormones! Why can't things just work out ALL the time so I can be a happy little cookie! Oh, yeah, that's right because its real life. I gotta learn how to cope.