Avoid Conflict

So here's the thing kids...after being asked a question in a survey("Please describe a difficult situation with a senior leader that you had to resolve. What was the situation? How did you resolve it?") I discovered that I think I avoid conflict. I don't think I ever used to do that. I think people would describe me as a person who usually confronts things head on and takes the bull by the horns, but recently this is not so. I was trying to think of an answer that fit that question, and I drew a blank...not because I didn't have any conflicts, but because I haven't confronted them in recent memory. That's soo sad. That makes me sad. When did I become this person? Why has it come to this? This is soo not me.

At the gym the other day, this personal trainer was yelling at me because I was in some part of the gym reserved for personal training (although it was empty) and I wanted to use the free weights (the only place in the gym with free weights). She told me I couldn't use the space, and I told her I would move if anyone came in and needed to use it. She just kept repeating herself, and I repeated myself. Deciding it was futile to argue with her, I grabbed the weights I needed and proceeded to do my exercises. She yelled across the gym for her manager who took her sweet time to come over to get me out of there, but by the time she was there I was done. It made me soo mad at the time that I just had to go. I couldn't even speak to her because I was afraid of yelling and screaming and making a fool of myself, which I do not love. I told myself when I calmed down I would call the gym and express my complete shock at how I was treated since I pay over $90/month to work out in the WHOLE gym. I never did.

What is this all about? Am I just to angry in general that I avoid confrontation for fear of lashing out on someone? Have I just become complacent so I don't want to deal with stupid or ignorant people anymore? I don't really know...if you have any thoughts on the matter, please leave me a comment...

My First Knitting Project

So I wanted to chime in and give you all an update on my first knitting project. So if you know me, you know that I am a die hard crocheter! But I went to the store with a friend of mine and decided I wanted to try a knitted project, so I bought some needles. I'm making this sweater that is deemed easy by it's website, and the stitch is...the fit, however is not. I've discovered recently that fitting knit and crocheted tops (let alone bras) when you're well endowed is not the easiest of tasks. Previously, I had been making patterns straight from books, sort of wondering why they didn't fit right, but wearing them anyway because I thought they were soo cute...now that I've joined Ravelry I've discovered that you can modify patterns to be shaped more appropriately to your body.

This is really not happening with my first knit project though. I'm still trying to master holding the needles and yarn correctly (which is quite different than crochet I might add). So I had the size that fit my bust measurements (L, or 40" bust) and when I finished the back it is like 23" wide...my back is maybe 17"...so I have to frog it (unravel the whole thing) and start over, perhaps making a size small or medium back...I'm not sure. I am pretty sure I need to make a size large front to cover the girls, since I don't know how to do short rows yet or make any shaping.

Who knows...this is where I'm at so far, so I wanted to share.