Hilarious!

I'm soo done.

I'm soo done working with people who operate in a bizarre way that defies logic, reason, and rational thought. Not all of them mind you, a special few.

In business school you learn to make decisions that reach a goal efficiently and effectively maximizing the time and efforts of everyone involved. Currently I work in an environment where little to no consideration is given to what would maximize time to create an effective solution. Someone thinks of something then does it, then a week later someone else thinks of the same thing and does it again. There is little communication. There is little thought given to how to coordinate tasks/projects to combine multiple people's interests to produce one cohesive efficient result. It's infuriating.

I never knew having good, efficient, sharp top management could effect an organization soo much, but it really does. It's fascinating. I gotta get out.

People people

I used to think I was a people person and I got along with all different types of people. I know now that this is categorically untrue. I do get along with most people, but I do not do well at all with stupid people. Being especially grumpy today, it's really hitting home with me. I don't like when people think they're slick and try to pull one over on you, when really they're completely transparent. I don't like when people make stupid decisions about who does what jobs when. I just don't like it. I'm sure I've fallen into these categories at times, the later at least, (perhaps that's why I dislike it so), but it really gets on my nerves. Teamwork is so important but a HUGE lack of communication across functions make the whole system breakdown. Idiocy at its best.

That's my rant. Take it as you will, please help me make smart choices so we don't have to pay stupid tax anymore!

Tired and exhausted

I'm soo tired...and there's soo much on my mind...too much. I can't even focus on work right now. I just want to go sit in a quiet place with no distractions, no TV, no dog, no noisy neighbors, just peace and quiet. Can I go back camping? Why does my mind work soo overtime, I hate it. I wish it would just shut up!

But alas, it is what makes me who I am...for better or worse. Oh and did I mention another one of my friends is getting married this weekend. I love you buttercups, but I really don't think emotionally I can handle another wedding. I mean, I know I will because I adore my friends and I would want them to do the same for me. But it will be an uphill battle not to turn into a crazy person. Eh...exhaustion.

Just so you understand here is the wedding schedule for 2008/2009...so far:
1/12/08 Wedding in MI
5/25/08 Wedding in Brooklyn
8/23/08 Wedding in MI
8/23/08 Wedding in NY (missed this one)
9/13/08 Wedding in Brooklyn
9/27/08 Wedding in Upstate NY
11/5/08 Wedding in Scranton
5/2/09 Wedding in MI
5/23/09 Wedding in DC
5/29/09 Wedding in CA

Can you see why I'm exhausted?

Addiction

I think I've developed an addiction to yarn and yarn crafts...eeks! I bring my yarn with me on the subway (its a long ride to and from work) and all day at work when I glance down at my yarn bag, I just want to pick up my project and work on it. It take more will power than I ever thought to resist the urge to just start crocheting at my desk during the day. That's bad, right? Maybe I should have a career in yarn, not beer :-/

Frustration

Why is it that some people do not understand very simple things? If I send you something you ask me for, why not review it, come back to me to talk through it for futher ideation/brainstorming, THEN go to someone else for more insight. Nope, not so much for me. I just get bypassed in all the middle steps and it drives me NUTS! Something I don't think is going to change here anytime soon, which makes it seem pointless for me to stay. Well, of course I'll stay, but it doesn't make it any less frustrating! Why would someone so consistently overlook someone else and not even realize it. Is there some interaction I am missing? Am I supposed to be doing something that I am not? Should I not get so upset about this? I can't not get upset about this because it hinders my professional growth.

I guess I just have to go back to one of my favorite quotes "Don't wait. Go get 'em. No one's giving you anything. You want to wait, you'll be waiting a long time - by yourself." -Dana Wade, SpikeDDB

On the flip side of that quote is: "To earn respect you have to do more than just order people around. The key to being a good leader is to work harder than everyone else." - Paul Cayard, Champion Sailor