It is upsetting for me to hear people doubt my chances of getting into graduate school. Who would dare say such a thing out loud, you ask? Oh, that would be my lovely bosses. It's such a shame to work for people who, without even realizing what they're saying, degrade you and question your intelligence. Why would you want someone working for you that you didn't think was smart enough to get into grad school? That's what eludes me. And if you did want that kind of person, that's not the kind of place that I want to work.
The reality is that I know they don't mean it when they say these things...like "oh, we haven't talked about your replacement yet because we don't even know if you'll get in." or "There are a lot of people applying this year so we're not sure if you'll be going to school in the fall" I mean, to them this is just rational thinking, but to me it's a huge slap in the face. It makes me consider what they actually wrote in my letters of recommendation. Scary thought, huh?!
Anyway, I've been ruminating on this for days, as my decision dates approach. I'm pretty confident about some schools and questionable about others, but certain I'll make the right decision. It's a stressful process to begin with, so if you see me and I tell you I'm applying to XYZ schools, even if you don't think I'll get in, just be happy for me that I'm embarking on a new phase in life. Much love!
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