Letting Go

Over the past couple of weeks,I have been continually surprised by how hard it is for me to let go of this job. I thought it would be fairly easy...find replacement, train him/her, relax, head off to grad school. It is not so my friends. I find my self correcting him on ideas that could be good but don't necessarily fit in with my ideas of how to manage a brand. I am seeing an increasingly negative side of myself in shooting down ideas (that I know from the past to have gotten rejected, been illegal, or not worked) and I don't like it. I think that may be particular to this job/company, but I am going to keep a close eye on it in my personality, because it is definitely NOT something I want to carry on.

It has really been eye opening for me. I sit in the room with my "replacement" and have to tell myself to keep my mouth shut because this is now his project. It's sad to get a glimpse of how things are going to go from here on out because while some things will be better, it seems apparent that some may get left by the wayside.

Who knows, the reality is that this is not my job anymore, and not my company to pull for anymore. Sad but true I suppose. I had always imagined moving on but still being amicable with my replacement and offering help and suggestions, but I feel like at this age and this time in life my co-horts feel like they have to prove themselves and therefore be competitive and contentious. (I'm probably the same way). Its just not what I had pictured happening. None of this has gone down how I imagined it would. But alas, these are the things we learn in life. Be cautiously optimistic, get to know people before you accept a job offer, love life and love what you do!