Are we there yet?

Oh to have a job and earn money.

I always thought it would be cool to go back to school and be out of the workforce for a bit, but I think a year is all I really needed. I find myself wanting to return to work for a bit more consistency of routine. Don't get me wrong, I have learned an amazing amount about myself, my life goals, my interpersonal skills (and lack thereof), but I am aching for an environment where I have some choice over who I am surrounded by. I'm tired of getting crazy looks for saying what is on my mind. I'm tired of people who don't have similar courtesy values or open minds. I'm sad that not very many people get my sarcasm. I thought I was not very sarcastic, and hated it in NY when people would be overly sarcastic with me, but I guess it rubbed off somehow. Now I find myself in the opposite chair. Saying things that I quickly regret because it was misunderstood. Negotiating complicated relationships that involve power struggle, control and ego. I am definitely struggling for my own power and control and trying to quell my ego through this whole experience too.

Just wish I had a job and was done already...that's all.

Pardon my vent.