Today has been quite a good day. Not over the top amazing, but a good solid day.
After three weeks of contemplation, I went back to see my nutritionist and we talked about why I was stuck losing weight...turns out, I have a good body image and don't so much want to lose weight. The flip side is that with a family history of high blood pressure losing 5% of my body weight will dramatically reduce my chances of developing high blood pressure (for which I almost already have pre-hypertension). That (being health and wellness reasons) is a good enough reason for me to get my butt into gear and lose weight.
The other part of our discussion revolved around stress...which is manifesting itself in a LOT of bad ways in my life right now. I've taken up yoga for stress relief and meditation to help minimize and prevent stress if possible.
Here's the interesting part: I was going to grab lunch today at Wendy's, but decided at the last minute to get Carrburritos instead. When I walked up to the door (a door I have visited numerous times before) I noticed there is a Meditation studio upstairs...hmmm...interesting coincidence. Then after I ate, I asked the woman who worked there if she knew anything about the studio. Turns out she is a yoga instructor and is interested in visiting the meditation studio as well. She gave me her card and hopefully we will practice at the same time.
Now there are several ways to view this interesting string of events, and I count myself blessed to be able to recognize many of them:
1) It is a mere coincidence that all of these events would transpire on the same day at a time that I was open to seeing them
2) The universe is conspiring to help me lead a more peaceful life by leading me to lunch at a place near a meditation studio with a waitress that teaches yoga who also wants to practice meditation.
3) God has moved in all these people's lives so that our paths would cross, and led me to lunch at Carrburritos so I could discover the meditation space.
4) I simply happen to be aware of opportunities to grow personally because I have been talking a lot about yoga and meditation so I finally realized there was a studio in a place I visit regularly, and had the foresight to ask one of the waitresses about it.
Frankly, I don't care much about the reason. I'm glad to have had these experiences conspire upon me today, and will hopefully have the will power and wherewithal to take action on them.
October 12, 2010
October 07, 2010
Chapter Ending
I've never really thought about the end of chapters until the beginning of the new one had already begun. But alas, that is not the case these days. I realize with business school coming to a close in 8 short months and me needing to get a job that I am writing/living the end of a pretty interesting chapter.
In this time, I have learned a ton about myself, including strengths, weaknesses, insecurities, and points of pride. However, in this moment, anxiety is overtaking me. Anxiety about if I will find a job (everyone keeps saying, yes you will, but how do they really know). Anxiety about whether or not people truly like me or if they're just being phony because we're supposed to build our networks. Anxiety about if I'm leading my team effectively or if they all think I'm a do-do! Anxiety about whether or not I have burned "political" bridges by being the outspoken woman that I am.
I think too much.
What I'm coming to learn is that some things are within my control and some things are not. A no-duh for most of you. The things that are outside of my control benefit none from my stress and anxiety so I must let them go. Those things that are within my control deserve some attention, but not all my energy because I would never get anything else done (like coursework and spending time with the bf). So this is basically the serenity prayer: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; And wisdom to know the difference. I'm working on wisdom to know the difference today.
So help me out if you see or hear me stressing about something that is not within my control. I'd like to be a bigger, better, braver, stronger, more humble human being, but alas...this takes work, time and wisdom.
In this time, I have learned a ton about myself, including strengths, weaknesses, insecurities, and points of pride. However, in this moment, anxiety is overtaking me. Anxiety about if I will find a job (everyone keeps saying, yes you will, but how do they really know). Anxiety about whether or not people truly like me or if they're just being phony because we're supposed to build our networks. Anxiety about if I'm leading my team effectively or if they all think I'm a do-do! Anxiety about whether or not I have burned "political" bridges by being the outspoken woman that I am.
I think too much.
What I'm coming to learn is that some things are within my control and some things are not. A no-duh for most of you. The things that are outside of my control benefit none from my stress and anxiety so I must let them go. Those things that are within my control deserve some attention, but not all my energy because I would never get anything else done (like coursework and spending time with the bf). So this is basically the serenity prayer: God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; Courage to change the things I can; And wisdom to know the difference. I'm working on wisdom to know the difference today.
So help me out if you see or hear me stressing about something that is not within my control. I'd like to be a bigger, better, braver, stronger, more humble human being, but alas...this takes work, time and wisdom.
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